Void, Emptiness..

What would you do if your life is like an empty container?a useless thing which people just throw it away after taking what it contains..leaving it as an unwanted trash..this is my life..a life which happiness would never blooms..when you are hoping so much for something, somehow you would never get it..is this what we called the challenges of life?people always said that if we worked hard for something we would get what we want..as the saying goes, ' we reap what we sown'..but why whatever i hope for, it would never come true no matter how hard i have tried?what i get in return is just a bucket full of disappointment..which makes me the loner..the one who nobody care for even if soul reaper is coming to find me..everyone would just do their own stuffs without taken into consideration that they have neglected someone..as usual, i am always the victim for this..a victim who never get to receive any care from anyone since i was small..what else can i do?i did my best..i am just trying to maintain a balance between friendship and relationship..but does that person knew about this?i just do not want to lose a gud frenship..i can understand that feeling as i have experienced it before..but everything is futile..nobody understand me..i am like a toy who is being played and acts as a temporary companion only..when people received enough care then i am being ditched aside..is this really a human nature?such a selfish and cruel thing to do..haiz..now what i can do is just not to disrupt that person's life..trying not to sms her or call her..then she can get her happiness as the way she wants to..is this a right choice?or is she waiting for somebody to appear?nobody knows..but the most important thing is that she is surrounded with happiness..that is my wish..a simple but yet a tough thing for me to do it..